Well today’s the day, one year since my baby Gabby went to heaven. It’s crazy how much I still miss her. Today I heard this song while I was driving by O.A.R. “I Miss You All The Time” and I know it wasn’t by accident. A Jonathan Carroll quote says it all: “My memory loves you… it asks about you all the time…”
I’ve had many dogs before Gabby and I love and miss them too, but Gabby was special, she was my soul dog. We had a connection that is hard to explain, and can never be replicated. She’s the only dog that I have had who has a mini memorial on my dresser, a stack of photos of her at hand, and a canvas of her on my bedroom wall. Gabby is the face of my business card which I have handy in my car, bag, and around the house. These things keep me connected to her and I occasionally blurt out a “Right Gabby” or “Right Grandma” (I called her that when she started getting grey).Each holiday or major event throughout the year usually begins with me saying, “This is the first (fill in the blank) without Gabby.”
The thing I miss the most is soaking up the sun with Gabby. Read my Instagram over the years and every other post was Gabby. ” Soaking up the sun with Gabby today” “Another great day with Gabby”. “Blue skies, sunshine and Gabby” Today was blue skies, sunshine and no Gabby! I really thought we would retire together.
Gabby will always be that dog that no dog can replace. The dog that can make me cry. My heart will always miss her, but my soul knows she’s at peace. “Whoever said, it’s only a dog, obviously never loved a dog.”